Well, here I am, just over 2 weeks to go, assuming that it works out to have this baby before Christmas, and it seems lately there is one thought that overwhelms my mind beyond all else. Am I really ready for this? I don’t mean the labor part, I don’t mean making sure I have all the clothes, bottles, diapers, etc. I know all of that will be fine. All I need for that is a good epidural and to remember that if we did forget anything, there’s a few stores right down the street. What I really wonder is am I ready for the next 18 years of her life? Am I ready to be responsible for this little girl. To know that every decision I make, and thing I do, will mold her to become the woman she will be in the future. So much of what she becomes is dependent on the ways that I teach and raise her. I have never had anything so reliant on me, she’ll need me to do everything for her, to be everything for her. Can I live up to that? I know that I will just need to take it one step at a time, one day at a time and I’ll figure out what I think is the best for her. And also to remember that I do have an amazing husband who will help me through it all and be there to be a great example for her. I don’t have to do any of this on my own and I am so thankful for that. I know he’ll always be there and that she’ll have plenty of family to love and watch over her to be sure she does become the absolute best that she can. With all the help I can get, hope, faith, and taking things one step at a time, I know this will be the toughest and best experience of my life.

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